Any Lengths?

Although these reparations take innumerable forms, there are some general principles which we find guiding.  Reminding ourselves that we have decided to go to any lengths to find a spiritual expereince, we ask that we be given strength and direction to do the right thing, no matter what the personal consequences may be.  We may lose our position or reputation or face jail, but we are willing.  We have to be.  We must not shrink at anything.  Big Book p79

This is the part in the Big Book where I said, "What an order!  I can't go through with it!".   I went off half-cocked about making amends to people in my first 90 days a few times, and all I can say is, it didn't get any better.  I was often just trying to relieve my own guilt and being the martyr they talk about further on in this section.  Then I began to understand that I didn't have to take care of everything 'right now'. Through guidance from my sponsor, we handled many of these situations one at a time as they presented themselves to me, and after I had worked much of the steps. Of course, more will be revealed and there may be more to do.  Just for today, I am willing.

Thank you Higher Power.  Thank you for understanding and giving me the strength I needed to face situations I created before, during and after my addiction.  Thank you for giving me the perfect opportunities to make amends, when they were needed and when they came from a place of love and honesty.  Thank you.