It is
plain that a life which includes deep resentment leads only to futility and
unhappiness. To the precise extent that we permit these, do we squander the
hours that might have been worth while. But with the alcoholic, whose hope is
the maintenance and growth of a spiritual experience, this business of
resentment is infinitely grave. We found that it is fatal. For when harboring
such feelings we shut ourselves off from the sunlight of the Spirit. The
insanity of alcohol returns and we drink again. And with us, to drink is to
die. Big Book p66
Resentments are our number 1 killer! I have
started a new practice of recognizing that each moment I have a resentment I am
dead at that moment. I have given some person, place or thing my life in
exchange for misery, unhappiness and drama. When I look at it that way, I am
much less willing to hang onto a resentment, however justified. As a result, I
am learning about my own expectations (which are premeditated resentments) of
people, places and things. I am learning to go with more of a flow and allow
others to be who they are. Spiritual progress, but certainly not
perfection!
Thank you Higher Power. Thank you for this quiet place I
can go to and release resentments to you. Thank you for showing me that
everyone is a mirror of my own disease and that others are not to blame for my
reaction. Thank you.
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