"Next we launched out on a
course of vigorous action, the first step of which is a personal housecleaning,
which many of us had never attempted. Though our decision was a vital and
crucial step, it could have little permanent effect unless at once followed by a
strenuous effort to face, and to be rid of, the things in ourselves which had
been blocking us. Our liquor was but a symptom. So we had to get down to causes
and conditions.
Therefore, we started upon a personal inventory. This
was Step Four." Big Book p63
When it comes to resentments, I was
taught that I needed to take someone (something if it is
principle/institution) else's inventory to move everything out of the way to get
to my 'side of the street'. I write down who angered me. I write down what I
was offended by and what it affected inside of me. Did it affect my
relationships, my self-esteem, my finances, etc.? It is so important to get to
the cause within myself that creates this 'reaction' of resentment. When I
dig deep enough, I always find fear and selfish-self-centeredness. There is
always something I am 'attached' to and often it is results that I am expecting
because of this deep rooted selfishness that my ego strives so incredibly hard
to protect.
Thank you Higher Power for
showing me a way out of resentment and into love. Thank you for the willingness
to forgive myself, so that I may have beautiful relationships. Thank
you.
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